Last year I committed myself to doing something that terrified me. Something that could have potentially ruined multiple friendships.
Yet something necessary.
A year ago today, I did it, and got the best case scenario.
The day afterwards, I wrote this.
Yet something necessary.
A year ago today, I did it, and got the best case scenario.
The day afterwards, I wrote this.
The time
has finally come
To bite the
bullet and hope it doesn’t explode in my face
Long have I
awaited this day
-Too long,
long enough
Dreaded it,
craved it.
A simple
answer is all I seek,
To know
which way to turn on the path forward.
Where to
plant my feet on my next step.
She leans,
waits.
-Perhaps
she already knows.
I grow cold
as the words spill out, and I know there is no turning back
It is time
to face the consequences, whatever they may be.
I know it
won’t turn out perfectly for me.
If it
could, it would have already.
-But I need
this, to erase one last regret.
Better to
regret doing it than not
However
painful the outcome may be.
She smiles
sadly, and answers.
The best I
could have hoped for.
Everything
risked, but nothing lost.
A few quiet
words exchanged afterwards, I say my thanks
Though I
can’t remember If they left my head.
The
feelings fade, knowing now nothing will come of them.
But she
will always be more than just a friend. She will be the friend who gave me what
I needed most,
Not because
of something she did
but
Simply
because of who she was.
Because
On that
day, I stopped being a coward.
Stopped
hating myself for what I failed to do.
Knew I
could do it again.
Because I
did, I bit the bullet.
And it
didn’t go off.